Perseverance-R2D16

per⋅se⋅ver⋅ance–noun: steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., esp. in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.

Good Morning! As you can tell by the title, something must be "up." Well, yes, that is, in fact, true. My weight is up. 1.8 to 195.7. I have been sabotaging my own success for quite some time on this round. I have attributed it to the same factors that typically cause eating, stress etc. Now, what I have GOT to learn is how to change the behavior. That is a part of this plan as well. I'm not entirely sure whether the move was a trigger or if it's just "old me" coming out to play. What I do know, is I will need to PERSEVERE. Ultimately, I've been letting myself get hungry. I do great until the afternoon. I've not eaten everything that is on the menu for the day, so I end up eating things "off the menu." This round is a little different than last because my husband is around and I'm now cooking for him and the the kids. Although, he is starting the protocol next week so that will be easier for me.

My lack of planning has also been to my own detriment. I have not prepared my meats in advance as I had the last time and I have not found one of my favorites (ground chicken) at our local stores. Now is the time to start planning. No more excuses, no more cheating, no more changes. Changes are another thing that have been implemented a little too much. I've not been sticking with "what works." I started eating apples again, which on the first round, didn't really work well with the losses for me. So, I switched to grapefruit. My problem now with grapefruit is that it upsets my stomach, so it must be too acidic. I also ran out of my protein shake, of which I ordered, but hasn't arrived yet. I bought something else at the store, but it's very gross and completely the wrong thing. I have also been eating way too much beef. Beef is one thing that if I eat too often, my losses stall.

So, my goal today is to grind up my own chicken and make some taco meat and salsa. That is my favorite meal. I could eat it twice a day, and on the last round, that's exactly what I did much of the time. Ultimately, I'm not utilizing the best tools that I have at my disposal. The biggest tool I have available that I'm not using is this: PRIOR PLANNING PREVENTS PISS POOR PERFORMANCE. Well, I've had piss poor performance for weeks this time. It's time to make some changes. I could be in the 180's now if I'd of just..................okay, that's where I need to stop. Should've, could've, would've but didn't. So, stop and change it NOW. That is the key. Being aware that there is a behavior problem and taking steps to change it. Behavior is what got me in this mess to begin with.

We are going to spend the weekend with our friends who live a couple of hours away. I was planning to just eat whatever was prepared in moderation, but now I'm realizing that if I want to succeed, I'd better pre-cook some of that chicken and salsa and bring it with me. Success is all about behavior modification.

A quote to ponder on: "You may delay, but time will not." Benjamin Franklin.

Really think about what that means for you. For me, it means, keep cheating, keep delaying in your successes in this protocol, and you will find yourself in the same place you've always been. Rich people (the ones who have worked for it) don't get that way because they procrastinate and sit back and watch the time pass. Time moves forward regardless of how we decide to spend it. It's time to retrain our thinking (my thinking) and allow the best utilization of my time.

Talk is cheap, action is priceless. Enough lip service. I say and I say and I say what I will do, now I need to DO it. I try to hide the fact that I'm cheating and pretend I'm doing so great. I AM still losing most of the time, but at a rate so much slower than I should be. I have 24 days to prove it to myself that this is going to change. 24 days is a very SHORT amount of time where a LOT of success can happen. It's time to allow myself to get to where I need to be.

Well, until Monday........